I like you, is that alright?

Well, then.. here I go, falling for someone but to afraid to show it. Running from my feelings because I am too afraid of getting hurt. Where did the bold Lena go? The one who wasn’t afraid of rejection? Where did the audacious Lena go? The one who wasn’t afraid of making mistakes? Have I…

Mindless swiping

Tinder has now become this place where I just swipe and very rarely interact with the people I match with. I went on a first date for the first time in a looonngg time and the guy asked why I was on tinder and I had to pause and think why.. I responded by saying…

Why are you still single

I’m weird and I’m awkward And I don’t know how to show My feelings to others without loosing control

Heartache

Oh the sorrow of loss it aches my heart in the moments of silence dismantling every wall that I have built and opening this neglected wound where my hearts… forgotten and soiled abandoned and deserted to fend for its own.   fermented and rancid repulsive is the sight Frightening and coercive one gawk brings fear…

How Can I be Happy?

Every holiday season, I wonder.. how can I enjoy this privilege when I know so many are suffering.  How can I sit in this coffee shop, with my five dollar latte sipping, knowing that I will be accepted here… knowing that I will go to a home which is warm… know that I will be…

Impermeable (rough)

My heart can be that way sometimes.. I push when you get near then pull when I realize what I’ve done. I’m much more subtle about it now than before, but I hate when I notice that I’ve pushed someone who is interested away because of intimacy… because of my fear of intimacy… because I’m…

My Love for my students

It is unreal how much I love my kiddos! So much so that I notice myself saying this rather often. I really do love them like they’re my little sisters and brothers… or maybe I feel like I am their aunt. which ever it is, I love em all. The good and the naughty…  love…

Movies: The Lobster and Her(drunk thoughts)

I have watched two movies these couple of nights. Both great movies and with very unusual endings which have left this heaviness behind, forcing me to view single-hood through a new lens. Relationships as social constructs: Lobster reminded me how much of a social construct relationships are. If you do some  research, you will find…

Bible

Something in my heart was telling me to read songs of Solomon and I found a verse which put a smile on my face. Many waters cannot quench love; rivers cannot sweep it away. Do not underestimate love.. do not believe that you can life a life alone without love because honey, you gonna die…

Norway: ex-minister charged with sexual abuse of asylum seekers

Shocked? Well this happens in the United States(government officials) as well behind closed doors. Exploiting those who have little power is like sentencing a person for a crime never committed. Incarcerating their minds and bodies and stripping them from a sense of self. There is no freedom or self when you are taken advantage by…